wHt SuPpoSeD i haVe 2 Do NoW ???

hurmm "sigh" ... i dun noe wht 2 do ?? seems a thousand questions floating in my minds now.. the story start wif... i've a new bf ... he is one of my ex before.... were couple back after i have broke up wif yang... now i start my new lyfe wif him... ouchh ya ... ady ?? were frenz now... furthermore he got a new gf... n i'm so hepy looking his happiness wif his beloved... urmm ok continue wif my story... the problems is... i dun noe y i cant give full of my love my heart towards him... i'l try so many times 2 open my heart 2 him... but it doesnt work... even its gettin worst i think... he is a kind man that i ever met... but i dun noe y i cant love him wif deeper of my heart... i'm so sory "syg" mayb the way i love u is lying u... i said i love u but the real is i dont... i noe when u noe bout this... u might hurt... sory once again... i'm not a gud person made 4 u... i'm a plastic love who owez give a lying hope 2 u..... i want 2 explain so many times 2 u... but i'm scared.... god, plizz strenghten my heart my soul 2 face this wif him... 2 tell him the truth i'm not a gurl that suitable 4 him....